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Five minutes of Introspection
The clock in the car read 3:45 in the afternoon, in normal situations I would ignore it, why look at that clock if I always see the time on my wrist or else on my cell phone? Yes, there are certainly things that are already redundant in life; but this time I could see the time, and as the time jumped from one minute to the next, I simply realized that it is not really as fast as I imagined it to be.
Conversations of introspection usually take place in the least imagined places, or at least I think so, but the reality is that well I never make time for this talk, where do I plan to get to? Has it been worth it to be where I am? Well, I really don't know nor am I really sure, and yes, that answers me, I have no purpose, nor has it been worth it; I really thought I would have felt the hard blow of life by now, it is barely 3:46, only a minute has passed and honestly it seems eternal.
Speaking of eternity, I think my problem is that I thought I was, well it's not that I was or believed it, I just feel that's how I lived lately, I should have made better use of each day. My grandfather trying to talk to me about responsibilities that I was going to acquire when I was 15, I really didn't appreciate it, since I was very young, there was still a long way to go and I don't remember but that I thought that talk was boring, I still had a lot of time, but he didn't, I hate at this moment how much of an idiot I was.
Yes, speaking of being an idiot, I think I would have won the lottery, if I had paid more attention to my father, I would have dedicated myself to what I like much sooner; and I think I would have had more opportunities to share my best moments with my family, if I had not concentrated on making mistakes. Have you ever thought about how interesting a glass looks when it breaks in slow motion? Depending on how it hits, sometimes it looks like lightning streaking across the sky.
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That's how mistakes are too, depending on the blow they are spread out until they become many and when we realize, the first one is small and even insignificant compared to the others, but well, even though life is full of mistakes it is simply better to have things to feel satisfied with.
My grandmother always said, the time and unforeseen event, dear grandson, do not run so much. I really did not understand, one day when curiosity ran through my mind I asked her, I think it was the day I had the deepest talk with her, at that time I look for a big heavy book, I never paid much attention to it was the Bible, and inside I looked for that phrase, it was really a kind of poem that said:
*And something else I have seen under the sun: that the swift do not always win the race, nor the mighty always win the battle, nor the wise always have food, nor the clever always have riches, nor do those who have knowledge always do well, for to all there comes some bad moment and some unforeseen event.
Sometimes you just remember good advice at the right time, but most of the time you remember it when it is too late. I think that yellow lights are for speeding up, although it is not really so, it is the rule of society, speeding up in life; that is why my grandmother's advice was always timely, I could not walk in life as if I was out of time and unforeseen event.
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Sometimes I think that time gives us the opportunity to appreciate in a few minutes many things, it is 3:48 and I have seen how the numbers on the car clock change, I have also been able to enjoy a nice chat with myself, my mind has always been faster than my body, that had frustrated me, but the reality is that it must be, the mind is the processor that sends signals to every part of the body, more, however, just at this moment I would have liked to be as fast as my mind.
When I was a child I used to play with my sisters swinging in a hammock, sometimes we even went all the way around, and that feeling of fear was intense, but fun; honestly, as adults, those little pleasures are not so much fun anymore, we were already thinking about how to fall, whether to breathe or not, if it is necessary to scream or where to get strength from.
Oh, it only took 5 minutes, it doesn't hurt much at all. I think my body finally managed to react, I know I'm okay, since I hear the sirens, I can feel my fingers and toes, although the pain is like a deafening scream, the best thing to do is to stay calm, right?
-Mr. Jesus, are you all right?
-We are the rescuers
-Can you hear us?
-Listen if I can hear you, although I can't move.
-Over here I need a stretcher, if you're okay, but we need to get you out fast.
